solitude

These few months have been a rather lonesome period for me. This is not a complaint. My social life was really confined to my friends in my unit, and to friends whom I happen to bump into randomly. I was not grounded or anything. It was by choice. My time was spent doing the same routine stuffs. When it's my working day, I work; when it's my off day, I stay at home. I was in search for some self-quality time, which I thought was lacking. I needed to reflect on many things in my life, and enrich myself in many other ways.

Now that it's only 14 days away from ORD, there's no better time to feel this accentuated sense of solitude. I keep a diary for this year, and that were so many activities and events I wrote down on each day of this year until the Nov 10. Pages after Nov 10 is still very empty and clean. And, many people are asking me these days, "what're your plans after ORD?" While I'm pretty much sure about my long term plans, I honestly have no immediate plans. So I'll just reply them, saying that maybe I would go for a good holiday, when in actual fact I have no such plans.

Perhaps, something in my subconscious prevented me from making concrete and immediate plans after ORD. Maybe I was meant for another agenda. That, I will only know with time.